over now
You and me, we started so energetically.
Perfectly matched together.
Magnificent. Hopeful and radiant.
I had the feeling that we were creating something, new, exploring, going off the beaten track, daring, doing it.
We went wrong once before.
Yet, we found each other again.
However, it was no longer as before.
I did my best, I believe you too.
But the enthusiasm was gone. What once was, was. Past perfect tense.
I felt insecure and looked for the passion of what had been.
I never knew where I was with you. Struggled with it.
I failed you. Got enough signals from you. Which I elegantly ignored.
I’m more sorry than I can write.
You and I were not a match in heaven, so to speak.
I wanted too much and you too little. I met all of your boundaries.
It frustrated me.
The result was that I sometimes challenged you on purpose.
I ran into your limits, which I knew existed. Intelligence is sexy, don’t play stupid.
And then suddenly I went too far.
I knew it.
I felt it.
I was expecting it.
Despite the disappointment. That we didn’t succeed, I’m glad that we briefly were in each others lives.
I now know how not to do it. Thanks to you.
Bitter sweet symphony.
Thank you for what I learned from you.
Instagram, over and out.
In the night of Friday 26 October on Saturday 27 October 2018, Instagram has permanently deleted my account for the second time. Three in a row, but not for blogporn. I want to thank everyone who followed me, for the shared passion and perhaps so much more than that. Hold tight. Of each other. Always. And no matter what.
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All artwork by Puck Rietveld
The philosophy behind blogporn is not so much that it’s written by me, as being my own person, but from a pseudonym. An alter ego, so to speak. This has several advantages.
First, my writings (on the wall) are not linked to me as a person, I mean that people who read blogporn don’t make an association with me. To guarantee my anonymity for various reasons. On the other hand, I think it’s important that everyone (18+) may and can recognize themselves in blogporn. It could therefore in principle be written by everyone and at the same time for everyone. This is what it’s all about. I find that important.
I want to exhilarate, challenge, be vulnerable, be able to be, dare to(o), arouse curiosity and share, create togetherness or just stimulate time with yourself. I want you to smile in recognition, get warmed by desire, notice your body when you get horny, really feel and touch yourself and who knows the other person too. What you do before, during or after blogporn is your choice. A sort of everything is possible and everything is allowed story 😉
Now let’s go back to my alter ego, the pseudonym I choose to write under. I chose N/A. The literal translation of this is: Not Applicable. It also means Not Available and No Answer. And last but not least:
Nocturnal Animal
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